Well, everyone, I finally did it.  I got married on Samhain this year at 7:30 that night.  So, I am on my way to learning the ways of married life.  It was a beautiful ceremony where everyone showed up in costume....the judge even dressed as the "monster" from Scream.  It was fun and a blast.  There, my mother who I haven't seen since I was 7 and my biological grandmother who I hadn't seen since I was 4 were there and It was a tearful reunion.  Even my dad was there, which shocked me because he didn't even go to my sister's wedding......

 

All in all it was beautiful, and it is finally over, so it is one less thing I can quit stressing over.  So, for those of you who knew I was getting married, just email me and I will be glad to email you pictures.  Unfortunately, for some reason I can't get covenspace to let me add them to my pics...so I will keep trying for those who just want to pop in and look.....

 

BLESSED BE!!!

 

LadyRain

I have finally finished reading "The Druid Way" By: Phillip Carr-Gomm who is a chief of the Order of Bards, Ovates and Druids.  I absolutely loved the book, and it encompasses all paths, and reads of a story of one man's travels in his path.  It doesn't criticize, lecture, or preach.  My favorite....:)

Anyway, there was one more poem that touched me in the last pages of the book, and I thought I would share on Page 144.

TORS

Earth to air, rock into sun

Earthskin flowered in mauve and yellow

lionpeaks and lionwalks skirted in growth:

windsculpture above the downland, and the fringe

of low thick trees with the streams deep-threading.

 

Our headlands are always the crouching of beasts

guarding thick breasts of ebullient land:

fierce northern tigers, wildcats of wind

or stormy elephants that are many-legged,

watchful mild horses snuffing the gales,

rocky tops with the touches of creatures.

 

Earth to air, wind-lashed

 

And the horses conceive of the wind

shaggy-haired pony foals are born.

Elephants stand in the tors,

wildcats cry in them.

The northern tiger and the lion lie

supine but watching . . .

 

They watch for the renewal of time

the coming of Arthur again, for strength

that breaks out of hiding and lashes

the skins of the ungodly:  for the Great Light

that comes without lighting, that man has not made.

 

Rock seeks upward to the fire of sun

blown of the endless wind,

refreshed at the roots by water.

But the thunderbolt comes

that flashes from east even to west

that strikes where it will.

Indeed it has destoyed:

but where it has struck, there the Graal is made.

                                                         NUINN

 

Still reading in "The Druids Way" by Philip Carr-Gomm, I came across yet another poem that I thought I would share on page 123 that made me think.  I really like this book because of the information, and how it is portrayed.  I would recommend this book to everyone, whether you are druid or not.....

Bright Blessings!!

LadyRain

 

We shall not cease from exploration

And the End of all our exploring

Will be to arrive where we started

And know the place for the first time.

Through the unknown, remembered gate

When the last of earth left to discover

 Is that which was the beginning;

At the source of the longest river

The voice of the hidden waterfall

And the children in the apple-tree

Not known, because not looked for

But heard, half-heard, in the stillness

Between two waves of the sea.

T.S. Eliot

I have been reading "The Druid Way" By: Philip Carr-Gomm, page 97, and read this out of his book and I really liked it.  It made me think, so I thought I would share it.

SHAMAN

 

Is this the way dawn

comes in your country -

a hushed leaning,

a breathing out of

forgotten gods?

 

Whith your snake eyes

your hands flicking

like knotted lightning

you conjure

the single shy flower

out of our deserts

 

with your raven voice

your panther silence

you sing back

the green ghosts from childhood

that we have banished.

 

Poetry is a word for it.

we have not looked but

there is something new

in this room

walking with us -

 

soul, nakedness, our

severed knowledge.

Tonight, in Brixton

they are burning, maiming

looting for the lack of it.

 

In Iran now

petrol bombs bloom orange

over ruins that were once

its oracle;

all our history has come down

to this:

 

Heart, without you

our wold is narrower

and more lethal than

a knifepoint;

there must be no more shrinking.

 

going home beneath

icy stars, I pray:

snake, raven, panther

river of steep shadow

do not desert us.

 

Stephen Parr

 

 

Is there a way to find out if someone has cast a spell on you to either do you harm, or to cause bad things to happen.......and you don't know it?  I usually know when a spell is cast, but this time I sense absolutely nothing.

 The last two weeks have been absolutely horrible.  It seems I take 2 steps forward in the right direction and get knocked 5 steps back.

Example?  2 weeks ago, a really good friend passed away.  It was his time, and he was at peace when he left.  I go to the wake, and I had someone I didn't know come up to me and tell me that I looked like white trash trying to fit in.  Yeah, some ppl are insulting....so I just let it go.

2 days later, I get a phone call saying that my foodstamps were being cut off because they didn't get my paperwork in the mail.  The very next day, they close my case saying I make $10 too much money.  THEN the day after that, they say I commited fraud and they cut off my medical.  They refuse to return my phone calls and I am in the process of filing a grievance.  Then, my fiance gets a good paying job, and things start looking up after a week of living on $.68 hotdogs and top ramen.  I am doing good at balancing my 2 jobs and handling both my girls.

THEN THE KICKER......I never get to do anything for myself, and Satuday night, I treated myself and a friend to go see SHe Daisy in concert at our local county fair.  It was fantastic....better than I would have hoped.  Then we get back to my car.  On a street where no driveways, sidewalks, or mailboxes were blocked, and bumper to bumper cars parked on the side.....There is my car in the middle of it all, and someone had taken a baseball bat or something and bashed in my windshield.  It took the cops 30 minutes to get there, and no other vehicle was touched...just mine.  Then the cop hands me a little card with a case number on it and says that with liability only insurance, there is nothing he can do...He told me to drive the car home, but if I got caught, my car would be towed.....what garbage?

Then, I go to my pagan group tonight, and get criticized for having to leave early because my 7 month old was tired and starting to cry.  I made it through the lesson, and when it came time for the meditation exercise, I had to excuse myself because the baby needed to go home...(it was 9pm or so) and my girls put themselves to bed around 7:30pm....it was time to get her home...then my High Priest of the group tells me in front of everyone, like I was a 4 year old...tells me that I needed to make more time for the group.  I am sorry....is there anyone out there that can meditate with a baby crying?  I was doing it for the sake of the group as well as the sake of my child....WTF?  I just don't get it.  Can anyone out there meditate while holding a crying, squirming baby?  If you can, please share the secret.  I would love to know....

All the while, I am acting as a single mom of 2 children, 2 jobs, and no childcare, and bad things keep happening.....I just don't know...I have cleansed myself...tried a chakra balancing...but nothing seems to be working....

If anyone has any ideas...please let me know....I don't know what else to do.....but do let me know by sending an email.....my comment thingy on this site only works half the time....

Thank you,

Be Well,

LadyRain